I have a bit of a problem with Time. We happen to disagree quite often. Every day we have a date, Time always rushes off somewhere. And I’m trying in vain to catch him and tame him. To make a helpful companion out of him. My grandmother Szivecském did. She was as wise as Solomon, who also knew his stuff. After all, he wrote a whole Bible passage about the right time. Yes, there is a right time for everything. Sometimes it is Now, other times it is her famous Kitartás — Endure. Too bad it didn’t dawn on me years ago that “now” means realization, “later” means only a potential possibility. I would love to tame Time. I am trying to spend some time with him and understand what part can I subdue, and what part doesn’t belong to me. I cannot change the past. If my calculation is correct, only the present can be tamed, and like falling dominoes, it will affect my future. I try to bury the tough things in forgiveness and frame the beautiful ones in memories. Loving memories can help me to draw joy from even in the difficult moments of the present.
The future does not exist. Wow, that sounds encouraging. I can create the future by my attitude towards the circumstances life brings me now. And that’s great news because that shadow at the gate of the future doesn’t have to scare me since it’s just a mirage. After all, my attitude towards everything that befalls me is in my own hands! I am now creating the “shadow” at the gate of “one day”. And what I create will become a reality. I can now look forward to that beautiful shadow and then enjoy the very “object” that casts it. God has placed such power in man that he can work miracles even in the most outrageous circumstances. Victor Frankl, Edith Eger, and so many others have witnessed it. I don’t have to hand over the power over my life to anyone. I can place it in the hands of my Creator. He means well. As I say, this is some piece of news!